I need a distraction like I need a frontal lobotomy
so I medicate daily, double up glass bottles in front of me
sacrifice the quality for extra quantity
and struggle through another noon of self-induced poverty
goddamn it, what the hell is this wrong with me?
electro shock, convulsive therapy horror dreams
where I'm locked in a padded cell and they're watching me constantly
I wake up in cold sweat panic'd doctors are following
I feel the fog rolling in from the machine,
time to slip the noose and clip reality, fuck sleep
big bull goose loony on the ward? Prisoner please
aint no sicker individual in the system than me
I come from the place where all hope is abandoned
raped, tied up and tortured for ransom
no fortunate sons, just unfortunate phantoms
where the good die young with no fuckin' answers
one flew east, one flew west, one flew over the cookoo's nest
sometimes there are screams, it seems it's like I feed too many demons to keep alive
sometimes there are dreams, it seems it's like everything I've loved in life has come to me to die.
DIE
mentally the wheels've come off and the engine's wrecked
DIE
is it even worth the effort to expend this breath?
DIE
when all I've left behind is chaos, confusion and distress
DIE
and I'm standing alone in this vast emptiness
I'm in a place where there's only vengeance
like a virus infects and then it spreads and
the only pity I have for who they send in
is I'll tell you same thing that I did them
everything you love in life
will end in death.
everything you love in life
will end in death.
sometimes there are screams - it seems it's like I feed too many demons to keep alive
sometimes there are dreams - it seems it's like everything I've loved in life has come to me to die.
Soul-searching hip-hop from this Florida rapper, with lyrics that dig deep and take an unflinching look at life’s questions. Bandcamp New & Notable May 1, 2023